Mysteriously inexplicable!

I am suspecting I'm in some sort of an inbalanced hormonal changes lately. Either it is owing to the removal of the Mirena or it is a result of the unstated effects of Lingzhi pills that I'm currently consuming daily.

Or maybe much worse, it could even be the pre-menopausal symtoms that I could be getting as I'm slowly moving past my mid thirties. Pre-menopausal symtoms?? This is so scary. My imagination has definitely run wild!

I can't help but just feel....... How shall I describe it? It is not something that I can put it in words. It is so inexplicable!

Maybe, this is just boredom.

It can even be my inner me shouting for loneliness.

But what exactly it is or what is the root cause, gawd knows!!

And as when I am about to continue dwelling on the inexplicable mood swings in me, my little girl calls me from school. It certainly breaks the spell of having me dwell on something not so productive.

I am glad that she remembers to call. I have instructed her to do so before she has left for school and she has indeed surprised me with her call. Afterall, my little girl has always been forgetful. I must remember to put a mental note to praise her tonight.

As for the inexplicable hormonal changes that almost grills me to bits, I am thankful that I can always count on my little ones. Yes, they are the ones who give me the spring of life!

They ARE my spring of life...

Melancholy

I woke up feeling miserably low in spirit.
I did'nt know why.

I could'nt contain my frustrations.

But what frustrations?

Little did I know what frustrations.
So, I smsed a buddy.

We had an exchange of smses.
Glad that things seemed a bit of sorted out,
at least that was what my buddy would have thought.

After all effort, the spirit felt the same.
Just low.

Maybe, it would be better...

Birthday

It is my boy's birthday and he has been counting the days. Now that the day is here, he has a wishful thought that he could get another round of present from us. I have to be firm, lest I give in to his whines again.

What happened was, he had pestered us into buying a game controller several months ago. He could'nt wait to have it till his birthday and so he managed to get his way by assuring us that it would be an early birthday gift.

But, a birthday without a present is like, oh so pathetic, you think. I was almost sold to such thoughts at first. Yesterday, I was at the newstand scouring high and low in search of his favourite magazine. Luckily, it was sold out.

Present or no present, he will still get to blow the candles on the cake. Most important of all, I have the duty to inculcate the right value upon him. He is to know that "a promise once made, has to be honoured."

Well, he does have a present. An early present, that is.

Unusual days

As expected, we did'nt get to watch any movie over the weekends. Instead, it was a fun filled weekends at Desaru, for my husband drove the three of us there. It was a planned outing with his business buddies. So, counting us in, it was an impressive troop of ten cars in all, car cruising all the way to Kota Tinggi before we finally reached Desaru, inwhich we spent a night there. It was definitely an unusual weekend experience and the kids really enjoyed it.

Having spent the weekends away from home, chores seemed to be building up in the house and I had a busy morning clearing stuffs and all that. It is always at time like this that I wish for a domestic helper.

Unlike most Mondays inwhich my freezer would have a complete stock of fresh food supply ranging from poultry to fishes to last for the week, so just this morning when I took stock of what was left in the freezer, I was having a hard time deciding what to cook for lunch and dinner. Apparently, the freezer was left with almost little stock because there was obviously no visit to the wet market the other day.

Eventually, lunch was merely porridge with batang fillets and some scrambled egg. So immediately after the kids had left for school, I headed to the neighbourhood NTUC to stock some fresh products.

It is also always at such time when I truely appreciate the place that I'm staying, never mind the fact that it is not a private estate.

Rock at One-north

We're gonna ROCK at one-north SOON.

Praise U, Lord!

Because of U,
I foresee myself getting a little more sleep than usual...

And definitely,
Gone will be the days of the long travelling to and fro Church,

For One-north
is almost close to my door-step
~ oops, maybe not, but at least,
no longer will I have the journey fatigue as compared
to travelling from West to Suntec,
and vice versa.

O Lord, how you have made my dream comes true..

I am beginning to see your glory...

Mid-life transformation or crisis?

Moi husband has been into this mid-life transformation recently.

As when you are in your mid-life, your metabolism rate slows down so husband has gradually developed a tyre-like flabby inches around his waist. Yeah, this is not so nice visually but as I've thought, this should not be a bother to any man. A man should take it to his stride that this is just mere evidence of the mid-life triumph.

Unfortunately, husband does not think likewise. He is conscious of the tyre. He is making effort to do a little bit of workout whenever he is free. He has even deliberately tried eating lesser at every meal.

As if having a husband who watches his diet is not good enough, I have noticed a particular change in his facial care. On his own accord, he has stooped to using my high quality facial gel as his daily facial wash. And you think he is using Kao Biore cleanser. No, hor!

Lately, he has taken pride into painstakingly scrubbing his pearly whites. He does it so diligently, twice a day. Good hygiene, you thought. But, to spend a good 5 - 10 minutes each time just to brush your teeth is way too much I say.

I can't believe his is my husband!

Rest in God

I have been hesitating whether to watch Ratatouile or Evan the Almighty. Luckily, having watched the Bruce Almighty on TV yesterday with my kids, we are definitely certain that we will not want to waste our bucks on whatever Almighty show!

Anyway, the new school term has just begun and husband has got plans this weekend, so I doubt we can make it for any movie. Talk about the new school term and that leads me to recall the small chat I had with husband's sister the other day about the various tuition classes that she has enrolled for her kids. Not that her kids are academically weak but just like most mothers, it is just a kiasu mentality.

As a mother, I definitely exhibit such kiasu syndrome. From how the way I react each time my children don't perform to my expectation, to the umpteen times of pushing them to complete the many exercises that I've assigned them, are just some examples.

Sometimes, all these get into my nerves and it is almost so ironical to have my non-believer husband to remind me to -

Rest in God!